obeeky
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Post by obeeky on Jun 29, 2012 16:33:05 GMT
Today wasn't a good day. Aching deep inside all day and trying to get anything organised is taking so long. Not all days feel like this thankfully and I'm not sure quite why today feels worse.
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Post by AJ on Jun 30, 2012 18:46:31 GMT
I cant really offer you any advice Keebo but I feel your pain and send you hugs.
I lost my dad, he was my world. I miss him all the time some days more than others, don't know why. TBH nobody really knows this because I don't show it, probably once a month i have a cry in private then just carry on. I think that's what most people who have lost someone do. Some days will be good some days not so, but that's ok just do what you need to do to feel a bit better. Take care xxx
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Post by emmap on Jul 20, 2012 17:57:44 GMT
seven years ago today since dad died. it's been the quickest yet longest time...I miss him.
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obeeky
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Post by obeeky on Jul 29, 2012 21:26:01 GMT
another tearful day. There's so much I wish I'd asked and I thought I had asked everything I needed to know. Yesterday we did some clearing out and I found another ring that dad had had cut off, that really got to me because I don't know why it had to be removed and I wanted to ask him. At least we found it though.
Also I keep having dreams where I am crying in the dream and so I wake up really upset which tends to affect me through the whole day. Thankfully not every day but at least once a week. I hope they stop soon.
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obeeky
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Post by obeeky on Aug 18, 2012 22:25:25 GMT
it's still the little things. Today it was cheese (dad ate a lot of butter and cheese). And remembering his help to get rid of spiders and a mouse.
I am not fighting the grief, I just accept that I well up at the drop of a hat and hope it doesn't look that obvious. I am getting on with life and enjoying things but I really do wish he was alive and well to share them with.
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Post by tofu on Aug 18, 2012 22:30:55 GMT
it's often the little things keebo, the small things that are meaningless to anyone else, but mean the world to you cos they are full of memories
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Post by obeeky on Sept 6, 2012 22:54:20 GMT
Today it was harder than usual to be at the hospital. All dad's last few days and hours replaying through my head as I sat with mum. tbh the last few minutes of dad's life are there on my mind most of the time and not easing off as I had hoped they would so I'll probably need a bit of help from Cruze. At least I know I can talk to someone about it.
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obeeky
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Post by obeeky on Sept 10, 2012 10:20:53 GMT
just took the bull by the horns and rang Cruse. I hope that a couple of sessions will be all I need to get me past this flashback phase. Learning how to handle mum's grief is the other issue. We've gone back to "is he dead? Does he know he's dead? I'm dead? Do I know that? Did anyone tell me he'd died? I need him now"
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Post by garfield on Sept 10, 2012 10:48:43 GMT
Glad you done something about it Keebs, hopefully they will help you n support you with your mum as well. It's a big burden to carry in your own x
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Post by garfield on Sept 10, 2012 10:50:07 GMT
Oh, *i* just did my most hated peeve! I "done" it. Bloody hell, I'm losing it.
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Post by garfield on Sept 10, 2012 10:50:37 GMT
Should be "did".
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Post by obeeky on Sept 28, 2012 20:07:30 GMT
had my first chat with Cruse this week, hopefully it will help. I miss him most when I leave their house in the dark as he always stood in the doorway waving goodbye and having a rollup.
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Post by Swamp Ophelia on Oct 25, 2012 22:16:35 GMT
Last night i saw a lone star and i wanted it to be my dad. in my mind it was.
today i took my mum to register his death. it is starting to feel real.
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Post by Earthlysparky on Oct 25, 2012 23:49:20 GMT
Words seem so feeble right now but I'm so, so sorry SO.
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Post by leibniz on Oct 26, 2012 5:30:23 GMT
Thinking of you SO. Your dad seemed such an ace man, from the photos and what you said about him...I'm so sorry for your huge loss.
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